No escape
And they pondered how to enforce the laws prevent me from escape to a kinder state that would allow me choice and the answer the bracelet on my ankle looks ordinary tracks my movement like the ultrasounds track the growth of the baby
Work Life Balance Guilt
I feel guilty when I choose not to work when I decide I get some time for me Every appointment I decline carries a weight guilt that I can't take care of you guilt that I am losing money guilt that I am putting my wants before everyone else not acknowledging that I...
Decisions about my body
And just like that Roe v Wade was overturned and dozens of tumblers in a complicated lock all across the United States slid into place I was locked out of making decisions about my body
Keeping secrets
Still keeping secrets omissions edits to my life til the last one dies then Will I be free?
Celebrate yourself
It is not the wedding that I celebrate the anniversary or the divorce it is me
I was your storyteller
I am your storyteller You never knew |all the stories my mind created for you excuses to make living easier to stay looking for complicated answers rather than acknowledging simple truth unable to say a word to give the truth or lie a voice knowing how the knowledge...
Stories
He gave me a story Something to believe Something to make me feel special Make me feel like we were destiny But I had been told that story before Different but the same and told another version Different but the same And I so wanted to believe And I can’t imagine any...
Peace
Put your hand there low on my belly do you feel it? the softness the calm no butterflies no tension nothing but calm and peace thank you for giving me that
Anxiety and trauma
I never know why the memories come but they do once in awhile and they are so vivid I can see his face the brown green of his eyes and I can’t shake them and then as I blink I can see my baby’s eyes warm and brown adoring and trusting and I can’t shake that either and...